1) An educational activity focusing on sexual health, substance use and making healthy choices with Thai adolescents at my local high school and
1) Painting murals about drugs and safe sex |
2) Garbage pick-up and later separated into the 4 recycling groups |
The Chase (verb): physically, mentally, emotionally trying to reach/achieve/get something or someone (written by me).
I've come to the conclusion that impacting my community in a ‘big way’
via a ‘big project’ (this is a perfect example of The Chase) is just not happening during my time in Thailand. This
could be just for me, but I do
think there is some truth to this for the overall Peace Corps experience. No, this is no Debbie-Downer or Pessimistic-Patty moment, instead this is a Realistic-Rosie or Take-the-Unnecessary-Pressure-Off-My-Shoulders-Sally kind of a moment. Most of us PCVs joke about the ‘small
victories’: 1 successful 60 minute lesson in the classroom, a new friendship with a
Thai person, 1 dedicated person who digs crocheting pocketbooks out of plastic bags, or 1 village kid who regularly throws their milk carton in your recycle bin. But, why do we, as PCVs, minimize that? At the end of the day, the small victories make me feel the
best, the most successful and the most happy.
As I write this, I ask myself “What the hell is wrong with
you Erica?” mainly
because I’ve written previous blogs and yapped away for hours about the significance of ‘planting seeds’ and that impacting just one Thai person is truly a success. And that’s not just
BS, I really do believe that. So, why am
I here again? Why is all of that so hard to believe when you are on the other side? I can't tell ya, because I have no clue. So, to help me move forward wouldn't it be best to focus on what is important? Yes, I think so too. What’s important is how the things I do make me and others feel. If we all feel like The Bomb and start singing 'Kumbaya' after those small victories, well then maybe they aren’t so small after all. And the things I'm chasing, aren't all that big.
So, there you have it: No, The Chase is not worth it. Focusing energy on the things that make you and the others around you feel good and inspired is worth it. So, I’m officially over The Chase. I’m kicking it like a bad habit (although I typically have trouble
kicking bad habits, so you may see a blog post like this again sometime soon). I’m back on the Small Victories ban-wagon,
folks! But, before I do this, I think a good "Re-charge, Re-energize and Re-fresh" is in order....and home (as in NY, to be with my amazing family and friends - YAY!) is where I'm going to get it. When I come back, I'll be ready to Go-Get-Em-Earl! Cheezy, I know - but it's Saturday night and I'm spooning Peanut Butter (thanks to loved ones back home who send me packages) out of the jar writing a blog - cut me some slack ;)